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lined the total lack of organisation, telling the "comite" that should go to Singapore. I calculated, that they must have gent by this time twice the monthly amount for the "revolution", that when my letter reached them the third instalment would have been gent and that up to January 1916 I could manage to keep them wait- ing, so that when I broke off the relation the February-amount would have been on the way to me, before they could have my letler announcing them the rupturs. All infamous, calculated falsehoods. There is some cruel pleasure in me, some mental sadism I think, to open all this wounds again. I see the ghastly spectres alone in all their frightfulnes8. You can never 300 the depth of these

wounds, not even think it out.

Then I sent a second letter, with new details now lies, all

0, that one necessary to keep up the thing over there in Berlin. great Lie forces whole regiments of new lies to come up and rally

round it, to keep it standing.

But Pate is righteous. I had my ticket per P & 0 stemmer in my pocket for Singapore, The hardest part of the work seemed to

And that same night, I got

be done. I should start the next day.

111 and could not go.

How shall I, how can I describe the agony I suffered there in that Shanghai Hotel, forsaken by every one, lonely all the long day, lonely all the dreadful hours of these never ending nights. I could wake up suddenly out of a slumber, for it was

that no longer sleep, deadзure that some one had spoken to me,

My heart was beating in my there was somebody in the room.

Then I knew it was my own throat. Sweat was all over 10.

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